'What about money?' I asked myself.
'It was a good salary,' I answered. 'And benefits too.'
'It was good money to be giving up. Now you are earning nothing and you have no plans.'
'I know. I’m trying not to think about it.' I paused. 'But, money isn’t everything.'
'It is to those who don’t have any. What about savings?'
'I have some. I’m no Bill Gates, but I have some.'
I stared at me. 'Aren’t you worried?'
'I’m trying not to think about it… I’m trying not to think long term.'
'Keynes said, “The long term is but a sequence of short terms”.'
'Exactly,' I agreed with myself. 'I’m just planning the next few short terms...'
'So what do you hope to get out of it? Of this quitting your job and running away abroad?'
'I’m not running away.' I frowned. 'I was in a lifestyle without life. And it’s all such a short ride, you know, then it’s over. I’m just trying to rekindle the fire; I’ll find some way to see through the rest.'
'Or maybe you’re just avoiding things as usual…'
'Screw you.'
'No, screw you.'
Luckily, just then, another me walked in and stopped me from hitting me.
You can work the rest of your life. You can piss off travelling to foreign countries for months on end likely only once in a lifetime. Enjoy the opportunity while it lasts.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the person above. You've given yourself the opportunity to do something new and potentially life-changing. There's no use in second-guessing yourself now. Don't waste this chance!
ReplyDeleteThanks for comments.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I'm thinking: WTF am I doing?
Other times: Yeah, yeah, yeah!
Either way, it's a lot more than I was feeling previously...
I feel the same;'a lifestyle with no life'. I just dont have the guts to do anything about it so hats off to you. I envy you. Have a great time x
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