Empirical Ego

“Hey Seb.”
“Hey Seb.”
“How are you… er, I mean, me?”
“I’m concerned.”
“There's a surprise. About what now?”
“That I have nothing to throw myself into.”
“What do you mean?”
“You know, when people don’t want to think about things, they throw themselves into their work. I don’t have any work so I have nothing to throw myself into.”
“So you want to throw yourself into something to stop yourself from thinking about why you need to throw yourself into something?”
“Er, yeah.”
“Have you ever thought about writing about these things to try and address them?”
“That‘s crazy talk.”
“You’re right. Hey, I hear the timpanist got engaged today...”
I throw myself into beating myself up.